I Can Hear My Own Heartbeat

Tuesday, June 16th, 2020

My hands are shaking right now, i’m so tired yet I feel so awake and active. I was falling asleep in your arms as you were trying to show me videos.

I always think I’m doing good, and I usually am, yet no one makes me laugh as hard as you do. No one kisses me or holds me or gets me the way you do. And when I looked at you today I felt nothing but admiration and adoration, yet I also didn’t feel love? Well, I did, but not the way it once was.

It was strange, but I liked it. You still felt comfortable and like my soulmate(platonically) but you no longer felt like my home. I needed that. I feel independent and away from you and I needed that. So now that everything feels normal, maybe we can actually be friends?

I’d like that a lot, you literally just left my house less than ten minutes ago after we spent the entire night talking and cuddling and kissing (because we’re dumbasses).

My eyes are heavy and i’m kind of falling asleep but thanks so much for tonight it was really fun. It was great seeing you again and it was great to laugh with you again. I can’t wait to hang out with you again