Wrow, so I actually meant to write around valentines day but I completely forgot. Well, not really forgot but, I’ve just been busy. I hate being an adult my god. Anyways, before I even get into that, I reread some of my old entries (I was adding photos to the…

I asked you to be my valentine! I was super nervous about it, so instead of outright saying it, I spent way too much time making a video like a faux dating sim to ask you. I was pretty proud of it! …

I haven't written a letter in awhile to you, it’s not that I haven't wanted to! I absolutely have! I just haven't felt very creative recently, I don’t know why. Expressing myself seems so hard in these letters now? I feel very very close to you in person though, so…

You left my house this morning to go to work, we didn’t mean to fall asleep and i’m sorry. I wish you got to go home instead of potentially having a stressful morning, it was fun seeing you again though! I’m really really excited for this weekend. We’re going to…

A few nights ago I took acid for the first time, I’m not someone who likes to dabble in things I don’t know already but, my roommate told me it would calm me down and it would all work out. God knows why I trusted him but I did, by…

I’m in a limited bathroom break right now. We’re so cross faded and I can’t stop just thinking about how much I love you. Or at least feel comfortable and safe around you. Not very sober right now. Your smiles, our photos, the way you look at me the way i look at you. Man. We both got it bad huh? Good thing we’re both refusing to admit it. Love that for us. I am. Very not sober. Gonna finish peeing now and get back to cuddling you as we pretend that I don’t have work in four hours. Ayyy bad decisions. Only for you though. Because I’m like not so secretly in love with you and stuff. Ok. Bye!! Cuddle you in a sec and you’ll read this uh.,never? Goodnight!!!

Sunday, June 28th, 2020 Well, lets ignore my past letter because tonight I have become confident of something. I am still hopelessly in love with you. Our silents laughs as we hold each other, unable to breathe, cheeks hurting from smiling too hard. …

Tuesday, June 16th, 2020 My hands are shaking right now, i’m so tired yet I feel so awake and active. I was falling asleep in your arms as you were trying to show me videos. I always think I’m doing good, and I usually am, yet no one makes me…

Monday, June 15th, 2020 I drank tonight so I wouldn’t think of you. I’ve been doing so good and you just popped back into my life. Surprise!!! Fuck off? Actually, I am loving our conversations. How we dance around the concept of us still being attracted to each other, the…